fuck man..

was so fucking happy today gg out w yee until zj tell me class list release which i hv absolute no idea. she said: youre in 2b? sad ? .. i totally got no idea is that a comment or a sarcarsism? dno how to spell. zz. ok. quite paranoid w it. cuz my happy angel mood straight away transform into sad emo mood. i was still happy for awhile thinking im same class w yee. end up i figured out the error im in some bloody fucking class call 2F. yeah. major fuck ! 

though there are error in the class list. but i kinda 90% sure which class im in. got so lucky one meh? one class got 20 over people and there are 5 classes not even 1 person same class as me ?! knn. super duper sad. i think its karma. cuz i hv been bad. i hv been saying ppl bad. and doing bad things. i have been showing bad attitude to everyone and lying and now karma comes to me. i totally deserve it. great. i rly think its not that i superstitious or smth but luck has rly gotta do with your personality. if you are a happy go lucky person or a very nice person who doesnt scold bad words... it seems like the chances of getting what you want is higher than those who gets angry all day long w short temper or shows ppl attitude. i so gonna hv to be nice to everyone. i so gonna hv to work hard. 

on happier note, alan is still teaching me. which is also not a confirm answer.. but i am still happy. everyone knw im happy cuz his my fave tcher. haaaahaaa. plus i hv combine classes that is same class w yee + sherry and apple. hmms.. not a bad thing aft all?  and gotta choose a sas w apple also. 

but i still think it sucks when i picture the first day of sch scenario w my retarded dumb looking blur face looking for the classroom and settle down like a quiet dumb bitch no one talk to me. nabeh. sibeh dulan. & somemore so funny got a person w the same surname same class as me. and my surname is highly rare. so i gt a instinct im gonna be his/her bezfwenzx. haha i dno the gender cuz the name is werid. wai keen- M or F ? plus my class seem to hv many malays. sorry.. im partially racist. i know its a rude comment. but its IMO.

super no mood. du lan to the max. so many things running thru my mind. i cannot even sleep even im tired now. tmr im gg sch to ask though i think the ans is pretty obvious. many ask me whether can change class which i suppose chances are slim as almost zero. so sad. apple also hv no girl-friend tht is from our yr 1 class in her new class. We are duper sad. we shld hug n cry tgt. knnb. haizxxxxxxxxxx !!!! fcuking sch. 

shit. i forget i said im gonna be nice. now how many fuck hv i typed ? chee. i sucks.. ppl enjoying holiday but im here affected by the classlist. i rant alot. and super damn alot. cuz i cannot keep it inside my heart. i got no choice i must tell ppl. if not im v paranoid. i dno why i gt so many thing to tell ppl. i talk non stop to everyone. i think everyone thinks im irritating already. my mouth become more pro than quan yi feng already. wtf. 

lets not think about it. lets just face our future and what's to come. i dare not dream. becuz i dont like the feeling of not getting it when i want it. so im realistic. i dont think of my future. i just take 1 step at a time. so if ppl ask me about my goals or what i wna be in future. i dont hv an answer seriously.. because i know abt 80% chance your future job will not turn out to be ur once-desired goal or job. okay mayb u will if u work hard toward ur goal blabla. but theres no such thing as goal in my life. so when ppl ask me imaginary qns.. sometime i cannot answer !

ARGH. looking forward. not. 

i need encouraging quotes. these quote are rly useful to me.. i put one everytime i find it meaningful to me. esp now !!

happier things now.

i have neon pink nails now.  yee n me bought it cuz its de new black ! ok cuz elva just painted her nails neon pink. but i just compared i realized hers is highlighter pink whereby ours is rly neon pink ! i was lazy to remove my the nail polish on my nail initially but yee insist helping me so tt we can apply immediately aft buying it to hv pinky nail tgt. LOL. she remove until her hand black. so we sat outside sakae n apply like hardcore. LOL familar sentence. and i got my unionjack bag thanks to my mom. tts the most expensive bag i bought in my 19yr of life. i know its exeggerating but im nt born w a silver spoon. so everything has to hv a budget. okay.. i swear no bags until sch starts. btw my union jack is nt de lazt pc ! abit sad. cuz like tt its not limited liao. LOL oh n also bought a shoe frm bv at only 10.

and we saw damn many ppl today. we tot we saw typben but its nt. lols. and saw thydowager. and saw Zheng Ge Ping aka Ge ping sunbae LOL and Desmond xu zheng rong and jeff wang jian fu and the xu ya hui from the star idol ! Oh and the guy from the Xiaxue guide to life Social Etiquette episode !! the guy who taught her how to smile n all. LOL. WA ge ping is super mian and handsome n hot i wna him be my father !!! hahahaah yee kp ask me to go tk pic w him but im too paiseh to do it. so just keep see the filming process. its some bio skin variety show. haha. as a father its rly cool for him to be so tall n muscular n he carry shoulder bag leh ! nt bagpack or sling bag. WA his blazer damn chio one. WAAAA he rly v young like tt younger den his wife. WAAAAAA i go gaga over him. LOLSSSS. I exeggerate agn but he is rly handsome for his age leh ! star struck today. hahaha. 

we went so many place today. cathay. iluma. orchard. vivo. oh hopefully i get the job ! though the sch's gna be bz.. sch days are mon to sat. Yes... SATURDAY. 6 days. no rez. how to complete work ? im gonna break my laptop when sch starts.

ok joke. LOL 

went vivo bought the sweet hahahaha. the one long thing. its damn nice. esp sour peach. and saw de tankh. so funny at first we at fep we totally saw a guy that super look like kh.. then aft tt really saw him. HAHAHA. rly saw alot of ppl today. waseh. then slacko at vivo. ate potato gratin at terra cafe. we were flaunting our neon pink nails All da time. hahahas. at first i tot my hand looked aqua sia... aft i find it quite chio. LOL. we ate superdog meal ! first try. damn nice. will eat again. i swear the hotdog is thick n juicy. LOL !!!!!!! and they actually serve the meal/ sauce/drink to us though its fastfood. home at near 12. we laugh super alot. haha i love talking craps.

this is my new love. idk y it lks so boyish to me thru pics.

its chio to the max in real life...

though it feel the price is super over...

but i still super love it !!