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Tai Chu Chin
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Monday, February 7, 2011 being practical
cant sleeeep.
i got quite a few thing running in my mind right now! what i want to buy! eyeshadow palette stiletto mascara clutch what i need to buy: loads of bday presents what i wish to have: dslr or digi cam! ringlight! i want to tk pretty picture everyday! :3 new iphone! tt owl pumps! pretty nails! a more visible dbl eyelid mm.. i guess. currently i only need these.. how i wish i am rich! how i wish when i spot something in the mall. i do not need to take a picture of it and go home to ask my mom before deciding whether i can buy it or not :( how i wish i can stop asking money from my parents. hais. if only i have the ability to have a stable income. alot of ppl say cert is evrything in sg, but there are a few examples out there who live off well without certs. either they r lucky? or they r rich i say. im neither of them. so i hv to work my ass off. but i sometimes think of what im g to do after i grad? im not quite sure. im kinda afraid to face the social industry. i read someone's blog n learn how the person started a little 2nd had shop n slowly now a famous online boutique. i rly wanna learn frm her n knw how she did it. i knw it is not easy to make your way up. but im nvr one of these ppl who have archievements in their life. i jus keep wondering.. 10 or 5 yrs down the road.. what would i be? i also feel that recently ive been feeling quute concern about my appearance. i wna be a skinny bitch! im not satisfied with my wt! and my eyes and my face n my nose! blahhh.. of cuz im not that crazy thinking of plastic surgery etc. is jus tt sometime u see how some ppl can groom themselves w make up till they look so pretty. or sm ppl who are beautiful by nature.. you feel like being part ofthem as well! afterall looks is a very impt thing. wish to stan out among the crowd. like how i witness lecturers in my sch helping a elite student who is quite good looking during a photoshoot. and no one helping the other student who not as good looking. the world is so practical. sometimes i even wish i can live off without make up. but its impossible for me ! if only i hv natural big eyes! that is the thing i want to change most on my face. but of cuz if we compare with the less fortunate. i should be satisfied with whatever i have and that my mom gave birth to a normal me. and i kept thiking what has the world become. eveyone is getting more n more open towards sex before marriage. ppl who thinks that u are 20 or 18 n you are still virgin means you are 'suaku'. i jus chatted w a pri sch fren randomly bcuz he pm me in fb saying happy cny. so the topic went from pri sch memories to bf gf stuff n eventually to sex. -.- i asked so u hv sex w all the girls tt were tgt w u. he say yes. i asked about how long aft u been tgt. he say few days or aft a week. he evn mention he had sex whn he was 13. ok its v wtf to me. and he ask me bout r/s and stuff which i told him i hv none. he say wad wow kinda tempts me dating u out. he. is. attached. -.- and before gg offline he say i knw we r v diff ppl, it wud b fun if. ever wanna hang out. i cant promise i wont try to slp w u though. u knw im an asshole :) i m so wtf. he says he like sinning. he likes the thrills and not the reward. and he ask don u want to knw how it feels like if a guy want u in bed badly meh? the vest part us. he hardly remember who i am! i feel so fking speehless. im jus thinking.. have all the guys in sg become like this? or are there still any good ones left? i feel so sorry for all the girls whom he broke up with. i knw is a whole new era. but what are the girls thinking.. sex is not a hobby to begin w? and it makes me realize how many girls out there at my age are actually not virgin anymore? i dont think its about being traditional or modern but about how u see and protect urself as a girl? if u can hv sex w a guy whom u jus got tgr w after a week den all i can say is you r a loose woman..? of cuz im nt lecturing anybody or saying that it is wrong, its just how i see things from my point of view. i feel like i cant keep up w the pace of the world anymore ? lol. i feel like 50 despite im ongoing 21. my hand ache after a bowling session or a wii session. my legs ache from walking few hours at orchard. i cant even hold mylaptop for long hours. my shoulder ache even when i alreafy hv little stuff in my bag. y do i feel so old wtf. i am physically 20 ongoing 21 but mentally 50. wtf. somtimes i wish my friends n i can be more lively and crazy ! and my life can be more happening w loads of events! which is nt gg to be since i dont h much friends. zz the abv is just my point of view and thoughts and not pinpointing anyone. do not take evrrything seriously! leave a comment. Older Post / Back to Top / Newer post |
